Along side my new "daily life" plan (which is quite the challenge on it's own) I'd like to write a new diet plan. So I'm back. Again.

My plan is similar to the last time. I'm going with that "lose 1lbs / week" thing. Otherwise it's just too crazy. SO, consume 250 calories LESS a day than my BMR and burn off the other 250 calories in exercise. That's -500 calories a day minimum, which adds up to -3500lbs/week (the equivalent of 1 lbs of fat). Simple as that. OH! Well, there is another rule. Always have breakfast. And always have at least 3 meals a day. On days that I ave to skip lunch & come back at night starved to death, note to self: THERE IS NO NEED TO BINGE YOUR ASS OFF. You should still have enough calories left to spend on a filling super. Ant trust me, the hunger monster disappears quicker than you think.

[ Exceptions to these rules ]

• Holidays
• eating out with friends (don't exactly want them to know this side of me, + when I'm out I wanna have a good time.)
• anything else I see fit, using proper judgement of course.

When making exceptions, I don't want to make myself feel like I have to redeem myself. It would make things just plain hopeless sometimes. Which would make me break. Breaking leads to another few months of binging and giving up on, well, pretty much everything I believe in. Which is........ NOT so good :P The condition for exceptions would therefore be: JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD AFTERWARDS!

[ Things that help ]

• Thinspo for one does help. (I'm not into very thin thinspo anymore. Just... somewhat thin.)
• Submitting myself to things I usually try to ignore because they make me sensitive. Certain movies, certain songs, certain people. Those sort of things. It gives me determination.
• Tea (if anything it calms me down. And it's consuming without having to worry about calories. Let's call it... therapeutic.)
• distracting myself (which shouldn't be difficult to do, what with my new life plan.)

[ How dieting itself can help my life ]

• It was Aya Ikeuchi, a Japanese girl with a terminal disease who once said  "when my existence seems to disappear, I will look for the place where i can do the best i can." So, when things make me feel like shit, it helps to try & compensate with my diet or by exercising. I'm a very self conscious girl for example. So often times when I talk to people I beat myself up for saying certain things or acting a certain way. You can't chance what you've already done, but you can for example drop & do sit-ups, knowing the anger is being recycled into something positive.
• In the end. Oh ho ho. In the end, if this were to actually work out the way it should... I would find, absolute, happiness. Absolute happiness I tell you. 115lbs? Oh dear lord as DISGUSTING as I KNOW this sounds, being 115 lbs would without a doubt make me happy. And happiness is a luxury these days. Happiness is the key to truly living. And the pursuit of happiness is what life's all about. Well.... actually. Happiness to me is not so much this, as it is love. Love would be bliss. But this is the next best thing. And that's why I never truly give up.

And now for some inspiration..!

(Just so you know, I'm going to start including a few more graphic pictures from now on. It's just that I've seen all there is to see when it comes to inspiration with clothes on. I think it's more precise to be inspired by the body itself. I hope I don't come off as some kind of pervert for this. And for the record, I'm not into any of the sexy lingerie in any of these pictures. I'm not like that. I like things simple. Okidokes? :P)

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This one picture above is like my goal..! Except that I'm starting out as 135.5lbs as opposed to 130lbs, and I'm trying to go down to 115lbs as opposed to 11.5lbs. In the end it's the same thing though. Losing 20 pounds.

This one above is also close to my goal, except... maybe I wouldn't wanna seem THAT thin. I guess wait loss affects people differently. I think I have enough of a mind to tell me when it's time to stop.

This picture above looks close enough to the kind of body I'd like to have.

This image above too. This is the kind of body I'd like. Simple as that.